Have you ever noticed that there is almost always someone who tries to tell you how to live your life? Whether it's your boss, your family, your enemies, or your friends? There is always another opinion who tries to change the path that you're on. Sometimes the opinions and advice can be good and sometimes it can be bad. Sometimes it just doesn't really matter.

Sometimes this fact just overwhelms me. So often I feel like I'm making decisions based on what others think and what others want for me. I'm constantly thinking of things that I want to do and then I stop to consider what others in my life would want. If I want something, is it possible that I could be taking something from someone else I care about? Is it possible that I could be acting selfishly?

These thoughts can consume me sometimes. I am so willing to give up something that I may desire, whether it be material or an experience, for someone else. And usually, I'm okay with it. But I've started noticing that with some things, it can make me feel inadequate. Sometimes when I base my life decisions on what others are telling me, I feel like I'm not capable of making these decisions on my own.

For example, when Matt and I got engaged and then said we wanted to get married this summer... so many people were against it. They thought it was too early, too fast. But we stuck by it anyway. Then, with the military, there were some who were against it. Another topic in our life that people are against is whether or not we have kids now or later. So many people have told me that we are just too young to have kids.

My opinion on that is younger, unmarried women have children and they do just fine. They are great mothers who love their children very much. Yes, I'm only twenty. But I am adult. I'm married and I'm about to get my bachelor's degree. When people tell me that I'm too young, or that I'm not ready, or that I just couldn't handle it right now, it frustrates me. How can anyone, other than myself, know if I'm ready to have a child or move away or whatever the circumstance?

I respect other's opinions. Highly respect them. But I've pretty much hit a point in my life where I'm going to start making my own decisions. I've started with making the decision with Matt to move away with the military. When it comes time we want a baby, we will make that decision. Or rather, God will make that decision. From here on out, I want to make decisions based off what's right for me and for Matthew. I want to just do our own thing sometimes. I want to follow the path that God has given me.

I'm not here to say that I don't love those in my life and that I don't value their opinions. Because I do. I really, truly do. But I'm tired of feeling like a child who can't do anything unsupervised. Some may think that I'm acting childish by posting this. But sometimes, having to write something out is the best way to get things out there. At least here I can go back over my words.

I'm ready to trust in God to get me where I am meant to be. He knows what's best for me.