Getting older.

You know, getting older is pretty interesting. Yes, I'm aware that I'm only 20 years old. But there are days I feel much older than that. Being twenty is interesting in itself. I feel like between 20 and 25 is when you really start to move forward with your adult life. Friends change, people change, you daily life changes.

I've lost a friend recently (no, she didn't die, we just aren't friends anymore), and it was hard. Harder than I expected. I know that we have both changed and that our lives have changed - we are friends with different groups at school and we are both really busy. But what I didn't realize was how much other people actually held our friendship together. Without that glue, we easily let life slip in between us.

I look back at all the friendships that have drifted away simply because we said "well, we're both just really busy." What kind of life is that? I don't want to live a life where I miss out on friendships and memories because I'm "too busy". I want to enjoy every experience I can.

Family (and friends) have always come first for me. It's how I was raised. But now it's taken on a new meaning. I'm not ready to move on and have hardly any friends just because I'm married and "too busy". I've given a lot more of my time to people this year, rather than work or school. Don't worry, grades are still important to me. But knowing that I'm leaving next summer has kind of rearranged my priorities this school year. I will get a degree whether I have C's or whether I have A's. (I'm still shooting for A's, so don't freak out, guys.) But I won't always get to spend an extra hour with my closest friends.

I want to be that person that everyone knows that I am a family (and friend) person. I don't want my life to revolve around work or school. I want it to revolve around people. I want it to revolve around those that I care about, and those that I'm just meeting. I want to live my life, not rush through it being "too busy". I want to show more love, more gratitude, more everything towards those in my life. I want to make an even bigger effort than I already am.