Mercies In Disguise.

Blessings - Laura Story

I've posted one of my favorite worship songs that I discovered thanks to Pandora.

The chorus goes like this:
"Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops,
What if your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights
are what it takes to know you're near?
What if the trails of this life
are Your Mercies in disguise?"

This song has really helped me out lately. Last night, Matthew and I prayed together about my nightmares that I've been having. I was really troubled over it and had been crying. Finally, as we were laying down and talking about the dreams, Matthew brought up this song. I had posted it on his Facebook page a couple of weeks ago or so.

Matthew brought it up because he knew that I was struggling to find a reason for having these dreams. He brought up that sometimes the trials of this life can be mercies in disguise. At first, I was kind of angered by it. I thought that it was a crappy way to get a message across to me. I mean, a simple note would suffice. Matt told me that wasn't fair of me to say; God always has his reasons, we just won't understand them most of the time.

Being a new Christian, I'm still sometimes struggling with certain concepts. Don't get me wrong, my faith is still growing every day. But I was seriously struggling with the thought of God using these horrific dreams to convey a message to me. As a result, I spent a lot of today reflecting on this. Once I got to work today, the first song that played on Pandora was Blessings. What perfect timing, as always.

After crying last night, I did feel slightly better. Sometimes a good cry is all you need. After pondering over this for hours, I've come to this conclusion: God knows what is best for me. He loves me, and I in turn should trust him. I know there must be a reason for these dreams. Sometimes, things aren't as you expect them to be. Just as the song says "What if the trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise?". Or what is your healing comes through tears? A normal assumption would lead someone to think that mercies and healings come through happy things, great things. But sometimes, that's just not the case.

I know that God has a plan for me, and that this just plays into the plan. I will bear these dreams and will lean on God for support. Matthew showed me a verse last night that really helped. It was Psalms 27. Here's a link to it: Psalms 27 (ESV). I would post it all here, but it's actually kind of long. I really encourage you all to go read it if you don't already know the verse. It really helped me last night. It gave me a calmness that I didn't have.